This is a blog about me, my life and my family!

I was just checking on the van to make sure it was okay here. I am nervous about being at a motel and my most valuable possessions are in the van. I know they are okay but it makes me nervous. I have my laptop so that makes me feel better, but I noticed they had a sign outside that it really doesn't belong where its at, its got San Bruno homes for sale and I am not even sure where that is located, sounds like somewhere in Texas of something...lol.

He did a really good job keeping the cats occupied earlier tonight, I have to give him credit for being such a good sport. He made up some cheese and crackers, and made a mess. He was so cute!

And boy oh boy what a fun night its been.  We drove almost all the way thru Iowa.  I didn't want to overdo myself on the first night going to Arizona.  So we are at a hotel/motel whatever you want to call it.  It doesn't have any of those fancy contemporary coffee tables or anything but hey its got a bed and right now that's all that matters!! Well I have a early morning. So sweet dreams everyone!

Lately my life has been turned upside down and inside out. Not sure where our lives are going in what direction. I have come to realize that some of the people who you thought were your friends, are in fact not. Case in point, a friend of mine whom I've been friends with for many years, like since kindergarten. We stopped by her house, to let her know we were moving. I didn't have her number because somehow she changed it. Actually what happened is, I called her number and her jerk of a husband answered and said she doesn't have that number. Well. So we made plans for two weeks later to spend some time together. That never happened!! Was I crushed? Completely, but I know now that her husband has control of her. That's fine. And then another friend has been telling my family that she's going to miss and that I am her only friend here. And crying about it. I'm sorry, I don't believe it ONE bit. I am here NOW. And how often has she attempted to spend time with me? I can count on one hand since the time I've lived in this house how many times I've been to her house. And AGAIN, she is always having to please her boyfriend. Boy do I sound jealous, but I am not. I have a wonderful boyfriend of 6 years. But I do know that friendships are important too. I am so tired of being lied to. So tired. My heart hurts beyond anything else that the two people I have trusted so much of my life to, have turned their backs on me. Especially at this time of moving to another state. I mean, do they think its going to make me change my mind about moving? No..actually it makes it easier for me. This is my last week here in the Quad Cities, I am looking forward to a new start but going to miss a lot of people!!!  I know they will always be here, but hope that they don't forget me.  It seems as though some people really don't care.  And that right there, hurts me...but too makes it easier for me.  And what people don't realize is, its not only for my Son to be closer to his Dad but too.  We've been wanting to move for quite some time but never had the chance because I didn't want to take my Son away from his Dad, so now that the roles are turned.  We have that chance.  And taking that step!!

What you may find when you clean. We were cleaning upstairs and found some stuff that does not belong to me. But I will leave for the landlord because it may be something he left for a reason. But really what would you use toggle switches for anyways? I have no clue, so that's why I am leaving them for the landlord. I can't wait to clean this place and get out. Its been a long time coming to get out of here. This place is so cold in the winter time. I mean, I hate to invite people over because they sit here freezing. Its a itty bitty house and with the bill being over $250 for ONE month, its a bit much.

To Arizona that is. We are leaving in exactly two weeks...who wants to go?

Continue my education even further. I've doing a lot of research online, and I have found that maybe investing in a criminal justice degree would be more of a benefit. I have looked over all the information on this website and found that being able to take my classes online would more easier for me as I am a Mom to a 12 year old and right now he's at that age where he's going to need more guidance especially with our move. See that's another advantage to taking my classes online, I am able to do my work in my own time. I know that there will be deadlines, but with the move I would be able to handle all that and not get behind. I think I need to let my friend Alysia know about this online courses, and see if she would be interested. I see that there is also financial aid on there too. That's even better!!! I did notice too that one of their courses is Health Information. I used to work in that field and I totally loved it. But with that you take a oath in Privacy of the Patients, its called Confidentiality and its so important. I loved that field and sometimes wish I could get back into it. But who knows. Maybe someday!

Then we are moving out of state. I am so nervous but really excited at the same time. I think what I am looking forward the most is the actual driving itself. Granted I've never drove for more than a hour and a half. Its going to be interesting. I hope I do well.

Down the road, we will be getting married. That in itself is a big step. So I want to make sure we do it right. I also need to look into some life insurance quotes because we never know what may happen in our lives. I do not want my Son to be reliable for anything. He doesn't deserve that. He is my everything and I only want the best for my Son.

We are working on getting everything packed here. Its a big deal moving across the country. I mean its really a big DEAL. We are eliminating alot of stuff before we are going. We have too. The truck isn't that big. The next couple of days, its do or die.