U Gotta Be Kiddin Me This is a blog about me, my life and my family!

Recently an online friend lost her Aunt to that evil dragon Cancer. It seems to take alot of our loved ones away, and it doesn't take them away in a nice manner. What a lot of us don't see is how evil Cancer is. And for some of us, its better that way. What I witnessed in my Grandmother's Death is something I wanted to keep my Sisters from seeing, but they did. I don't think they remember too much, I seen things that one should never have to see. Its a side of Cancer that people sometimes want to overlook but its something that I have to deal with on a daily basis. Its stuck in my head. It doesn't go away. It sits there, and all of a sudden I lose it and start crying. It took me months to stop crying everyday. It had been right before Christmas when I finally had no more tears. Up until yesterday when my online friend posted she had lost her Aunt. It brought back more memories but these tears were good tears as she got me thinking about the good times with my Grandma!!!

Right now we are watching House Hunters, and it shows potential home buyers and they have a check list of stuff for their new homes, of things that they want. Like the one today, the guy was specific in wanting one of those outdoor fireplaces and fire pit. He also wanted an area to have a garden as well! It was so interesting watching these shows, and how picky some people are! I guess I would be too, after all you would be living in that house forever. I can't wait to get moved so I can actually have a place that is alot bigger and ALOT warmer all year round.

I am sitting here...freeeeeezing right now. I am so cold, I am going to bed just to get warm. Its like this every winter in this small house. I so can't wait to move.

With our upcoming move here, I have a lot of questions to ask. I don't know where to turn or who to ask. I did send a email to my Ex asking him but I know he's is busy doing whatever he's doing. I do know that we will not need any motorhome towing insurance so I guess that's good. We will have to have regular insurance for the entire move. I have been frantically thinking about all that needs to be done. I am overwhelmed, but I figured if I started now then it will not be so hard later.

What a fast year 2009 was or it seems. It went by so quickly. But now, here its 2010 and this year is going to be the best year yet! I am excited we only have a few months left here in this cold frigid climate. So looking forward to the warmth.