U Gotta Be Kiddin Me This is a blog about me, my life and my family!

Make sure I properly pack things in the garage. I noticed the other day while packing more stuff that our pond stuff got damaged. It looks like we will have to buy another one of those pond pumps because I sorta dropped and busted off the piece where the plastic tubing goes. If you don't have that, then you have a jacuzzi if you know what I mean. Bubbles everywhere!!! I simply cannot wait to get moved and build my own pond again. I loved it!

The DYI people? You know the ones with redoing the homes and flipping them? I love those shows. I love watching how when they redo a home that the items they put into the homes are unique and beautiful. Any regular Joe wouldn't put any of those copper sinks in, but this one show in particular that was their specialty and it was just beautiful. I wish I could do that myself. It looks stressful but so rewarding in the end.

I can't wait to get moved now even more. It seems the longer I stay around here, the more depressed I get. I have family but it seems more and more its drifting apart. Its not the same. Christmas this year is going to be the saddest one yet. We will be missing the one person we all aimed to please...Grandma. So this year, I am celebrating at home here with my current family. I will be fine. I hope.

I am to the point of no return...UNLESS I start something right now. I just may need a appetite suppressant or something. I get stressed...I eat. I've been under a tremendous amount of stress these past couple of weeks, months I should say. I've been depressed and sometimes too upset for words. I've neglected my blogs and so many other things that I have totally forgotten about. I need something and fast.

While helping my Parents move out of their house, I found some furnace filters in a closet downstairs under the stairs. They kind of scared me, they fell down on me. I jumped back cause I thought it was a big spider or something!! Leave it to me to think that. At least we got all their stuff out. I was relieved after being so stressed. Right now, I have some house work to get done.

I have been doubting myself for a long while now. I don't know what or where I am doing or going. I feel so lost. I feel like my life has been turned upside down since my Grandma passed away. It took so much away from my Mom. I really dislike what has become of my family. To me, her death has torn our family apart.

Is my Grandparents 50th Wedding Anniversary. They are so excited, 50 years a long time to be together. They even went out and got some pink and purple promotional pens with their names on it and 50th Wedding Anniversary. So sweet. I am hoping to make it to the party as money has been tight and its an hour away, so hopefully the weather holds up well enough. I guess we will see.

Our Family has hit a road block. It seems, that certain people in our family had made a decision that should of never happened. So in return, they are now stuck in between homes. Living with my Sister, but knowing my Sister she is extremely picky. Sometimes a little too much. She says that's the way she lives and how she is, we all know that. Way too well. And here I am the oldest and should be the one with a bigger house and all. Well I live in a shoebox and I am frustrated beyond myself. I love my Family but I do not know how much more I can simply take right now. I really don't.