U Gotta Be Kiddin Me This is a blog about me, my life and my family!

Now I grew up loving McDonalds, along with everyone else. Well here in a little town close to me, there is a McDonalds that has been closed down by the Health Dept. due to a employee there contracted Hepatitis A. This person did all the proper procedures by reporting to their boss. It took one month and 16 people later for them to finally do something for the public. 16 people are now infected with Hepatitis A. And coming to find out, proper procedures were not followed and how its funny how the ONE persons case "fell" thru the cracks. I will never eat at McDonalds ever, ever again. The place that was shut down was placed on probation in Feb. with improper food handling. That is just udderly gross!!!! It really makes me sick to my stomach!

I woke up to no power, to silence that was silent you could hear babies crying down the road in the apartments. To listening to people honking their horns and when I walked outside, I saw everyone of my neighbors sitting on their front porches. It was odd, it was peculiar. To me it changed my life. We lost power at a little after Six in the morning. The previous night I was visiting a friend down the road, and oddly enough we were discussing her tree right in front of her house. I told her, that if a storm ever hit, that I hope it falls the other way. The next morning I got a text from her. "You cursed me, tree on house!". I was crushed. I started crying. I called her to make sure she was ok. She was. Phew. But to even get to her house is another story. When I first turned on to the street by my house, I knew I was in for a treck to even get there. Downed power lines, blocks long. Every road down to her home was blocked by downed trees or power lines. Our main busy road, John Deere Road was blocked from two different ends. Which meant, no one was going anywhere. Two main power poles toppled over like toothpicks even though they were metal, just broke in half. I finally made my way down to her house having to drive around all the downed trees it was so no easy to do. In her neighborhood alone, every single house was affected by they trees. EVERY HOUSE. The neighborhood looks bare today. When I clicked on our local website qconline, it had to put the grim reminder of what happened last year. I learned one thing, to always be prepared.

I have alot of anger and frustration right now built up, and in all honesty....I need something to change. I really do. Besides needing some weight loss supplements, I need some add'l changes to be made in my own home. I can't help but feel like I am stuck in one position all the time, or I am stuck on a merry go round. I just keep going in the same circles, over and over again. I really hate the way the things are going around here. Every bit of money we get, is spent on bills. I know its a every person type of deal but seriously, I would love to be able to go to the grocery store once a week and get groceries but that never happens!!! EVER! I can't afford groceries.

We've had record breaking low temps here. We are so used to having 100+ days here, and would you believe its been so beautiful these last couple of days. I mean, working outside type of weather. Actually right now, I would love to go outside and trim all the weeds around the house. I just might do that to get rid of some of this anger I have right now.

Yesterday at work, we were talking about scrapbooking and stuff. Well my friend Sandra, such a sweet young girl with a little girl is still very young and has so much to learn in life. She's only 19 with a baby. She was explaining her situation with the child's father. How she has kept all the notes, letters, pictures but had decided to rip them all up as it wasn't doing her any good. I reminded her, no matter what. To keep everything, save them for their daughter cause someday she's gonna want to know who her Daddy is. She's going to want to have an identity. Even though the Father won't take any DNA testing because he believes the child isn't his. Sad thing is, the baby looks just like him!! Then to find out, which really freaked me out. The Ex-Boyfriend Father of the Baby lives right next door to me. Oh it breaks my heart to know this and not say a word to my neighbors. We are supposed to get together and make up some scrapbooking pages. And how to do it without them knowing she's here.

All I've heard lately are the bad things that people are saying to other people. And frankly its starting to upset me. Why people are being so judgemental, thinking they are perfect and are Christians. A close friend of mine is paying the ultimate price of being a parent right now, as a situation had happened she stepped up took the responsibility and thinks that she is going to lose her kids. Well we all know in our hearts that everyone makes mistakes. Well a associate of her decided to judge her and tell her that no matter what, or how many people you have praying for the child, its the parent that needs to look to God for help. This parent also has her own religion and deals with that on her own, just because she doesn't go to church doesn't believe she has a God. This Associate started preaching the word of God to her, with verses and such. But yet when someone stepped up and stood up for my friend, she deleted and blocked her as a friend. WTH? This Associate isn't God, she started judging my friend and saying inappropriate things and then couldn't take the critizism. I believe my friend will make it thru this speed bump in the road because she has the most wonderful friends ever!!! God or no God...she's got us!!

All its done is rain, rain, rain and we are suppose to get more tonight. I know too that the East Coast has been overloaded with rain as well. This morning it was a torrential downpour. You know its bad when they don't even open a garden center for how bad it was. I went to another store to keep myself busy, came back and they still weren't open. I did notice some guys purchasing some truck accessories for their trucks and I had never see so many windshield wipers going out the door. I know I need to replace mine because all I had seen was streaks. Then my windows kept fogging up on me cause my air don't work. I think what's gonna happen is I am going to buy a new air unit for my van and be done with it.

On Tuesday, I had to take my Son to the airport so he could fly with his Step Brother to Arizona. It was the hardest day of my life of letting my Son grow up. Yes, Grow up. He got to ride in the airplane without his parents and be in total control of himself. And quite frankly I wasn't ready for that yet. I don't get to see him for a month and its been a rough couple of days. I have this headache that won't go away. And its tearing me apart at the moment. I came home yesterday and fell asleep for 2 hours. Granted I was worn out from driving all that way and crying, it was bound to happen. I found myself thinking, can I just sleep for a month til' he's home? It would go faster right? Do I have to eat? How do I know if he's eating? Is he changing his unders? I hope he takes a shower tonight! I have so many wonders at the moment. But I know I need to let go. I need to stop being a overbearing Mom. But I don't want too, he's my only child and I don't want him to grow up too fast.

Tomorrow my Son is leaving and I have butterflies for his flight out to Arizona.  Its something I don't like but have no control over at the moment.   I can say right now, I will probably lose my appetitie for my Son being gone for so long.  I won't need the best diet pills to help me anytime soon. I already have lost my appetite. And he's not even gone yet!

This past week, I have been spending more time with my Son than ever.  He is leaving in two days to spend a month with his Father.  Its breaking my heart just to even think about it!!!  Seriously its been very rough.  I love my Son to pieces and granted I have custody of him, he needs to be with his Father as well.    I may sound greedy, but being 1,500 miles apart is what's scaring me!!!! On Tuesday, I have to take him to the airport which is an hour and a half away., then I have to sit there until the plane is airborne.  Then the wait for his call when he arrives at his Dad's.   Just the thought of anything bad happening  is what's haunting me.  What is there is a plane diversion or something...I question who is going to take care of him?   Positive thoughts is what I have to keep telling myself.  I also have to be strong and positive for my Son while he is getting on the plane.   But I know in my heart its going to break and hurt so bad.  I already feel the pain in my stomach!!  Its an unexplainable pain.  I have a early morning tomorrow as a friend of mine needs me to be her rock, so I will be with her early!!!