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Archive for July 9th, 2009

I don’t think I could ever do that again.

On Tuesday, I had to take my Son to the airport so he could fly with his Step Brother to Arizona. It was the hardest day of my life of letting my Son grow up. Yes, Grow up. He got to ride in the airplane without his parents and be in total control of himself. And quite frankly I wasn't ready for that yet. I don't get to see him for a month and its been a rough couple of days. I have this headache that won't go away. And its tearing me apart at the moment. I came home yesterday and fell asleep for 2 hours. Granted I was worn out from driving all that way and crying, it was bound to happen. I found myself thinking, can I just sleep for a month til' he's home? It would go faster right? Do I have to eat? How do I know if he's eating? Is he changing his unders? I hope he takes a shower tonight! I have so many wonders at the moment. But I know I need to let go. I need to stop being a overbearing Mom. But I don't want too, he's my only child and I don't want him to grow up too fast.