Jul 05 2009
Why is it so hard?
This past week, I have been spending more time with my Son than ever. He is leaving in two days to spend a month with his Father. Its breaking my heart just to even think about it!!! Seriously its been very rough. I love my Son to pieces and granted I have custody of him, he needs to be with his Father as well. I may sound greedy, but being 1,500 miles apart is what's scaring me!!!!
On Tuesday, I have to take him to the airport which is an hour and a half away., then I have to sit there until the plane is airborne. Then the wait for his call when he arrives at his Dad's. Just the thought of anything bad happening is what's haunting me. What is there is a plane diversion or something...I question who is going to take care of him? Positive thoughts is what I have to keep telling myself.
I also have to be strong and positive for my Son while he is getting on the plane. But I know in my heart its going to break and hurt so bad. I already feel the pain in my stomach!! Its an unexplainable pain.
I have a early morning tomorrow as a friend of mine needs me to be her rock, so I will be with her early!!!
