U Gotta Be Kiddin Me

It was the scariest thing yesterday when I fell. I guess you can say, it reminded me of Natasha Richardson when she hit her head. Well I fell, my head and shoulder hit the chair and I felt my back just snap, crackle and pop. And thought to myself if I move, I could paralyze myself. So I laid there, tried to see if there was any pain in my back. There was little at the time, but more in my knee...it was on fire. I scared the ER doc, they though I broke my wrist and was worried about it being the scaphoid bone because its the most commonly broken bone. Thank goodness it wasn't. Then when they said they needed another opinion on my back xray, it scared me even more. Well I woke up today with little pain but my arm very sore. I've been taking Ibuprohen and so far, so good. I woke take the other stuff til' bedtime. I don't like taking medicines, in fact I hate it. But irritated me last night was the doctor offering me different drugs like Darvocet, Lorotabs?, Tylenol 3's, Vicodin, whatever I wanted. I said, give me the less invasive stuff that won't wreak havoc on my stomach. So today, my boyfriend and I worked together, he did most of the work but we got the attic done. That is a blessing to have done. Less to do later. In a little bit my Son's Aunt from North Carolina will be here to go thru the clothes that I have been saving up for her. I have a huge heaping pile, that I have been washing for her. Hopefully she takes most of it, the rest is going to Good Will. I am so excited. People don't realize all the "stuff" I have. This move is kicking my ass so far.

After my tumble yesterday I think I bruised my ego more than anything. The wrist is better but all the way up the elbow is really sore. They gave me pain pills, but sorry...I don't like taking them. I don't like the weird ass feelings it gives me. I for one, like to be in control my mind....lol. Ask anyone they will tell you. They tried giving me pain medicine in the ER last night but told them no. I had a empty stomach and knew I would get sick if I did. So I waited til' almost time for bed before I took one. It was a rough night, thanks to the furbabies....but managed. Today, we still have LOTS to do. Oh, forgot to mention while in the ER my boss called to tell me the time and place for training for work. I was all calm and shit, he had no clue where I was at....lol. THEN, when they took my blood pressure the first time it was high, they think it was from the fall and hurting myself. It was 142/100 and then the second time it was 122/86 so that eased my mind. Kinda scared me though.

They are not. My worst fear happened today. We were working on the attic getting the boxes down, and my boyfriend had went out to the garage. And I tripped over a box, face first into the chair. All I remember is hearing a crack, snap and pop. Then a instant burning sensation in my right knee. So I laid there til' my boyfriend came in, he asked if I was alright. He helped me sit up. I sat there for a few minutes...then when I went to get up...I couldn't use my left hand, no pressure on it whatsoever. So with that, we decided to get to the ER...where they found I sprained my left wrist cause its obviously swollen and sprained my knee but have a feeling I will be in to see the Ortho doc because its my bad knee. So here now...I am sitting here barely typing...medicine is kicking in...I am afraid I am going to wake up sore. I am already sore as it feels like a mac truck hit me.

Today was a sad day though, it was a day of tearing down a building that built back in 1937, a building that holds ALOT of memories for me and also many other people. I had the pleasure of taking my Nephew with me after kidnapping him from my Mom's house...so here his beautiful smile.. And of course we spoiled him with lunch and then went to Dairy Queen where he picked out his favorite ice cream, chocolate chip cookie dough... I would love to put the video up of the demolition and my Nephew talking about blowing it up. It was too cute. We also went to Lock and Dam 15 to check out the barges that were gonna go thru but didn't because it was Arsenal Time...and we didn't want to wait 45 minutes for that to end. Then we came home after stopping at the store to get some ketchup for dinner, in which my Nephew helped make Barb Q Pork Sandwiches and baked potatoes. He's slowly getting sleepy here. He ate half his ice cream today and saved the rest for dessert. So now, he's good to go. He will be all snuggly in my Son's bed here soon. He's done had his bath too. Gonna decide what to make for breakfast here too, so I can go ahead and get it all ready to go.

I have to admit, I apologize but yes I am very picky.  I have sensitive ears.   So when my Boyfriend was out shopping for me had tons of questions for me and honestly, I told him to do his homework.  LOL.    So when he went searching for earrings I sent him to that site. He was telling me about the links that were on there, and he thought that was kind of neat, and in a way humorous. He goes, "Wow, its got a I'm Sorry link in there!" for when guys sometimes messed up. I reminded him that he may need that someday in the future. He chuckled. He also told me that he found my birthstone and its name, Peridot. And asked if I would really wear something that color? I said, it depends on the jewelry. I asked if there were any wedding rings on there, he was quiet and didn't say anything. So of course that left me curious and I looked myself. I love white gold, and their selection is just amazing. Oh and the ring, I absolutely love is on there. I so want it. Now maybe if I butter up to him, that will be my ring someday!!!!

That I was single again.  I wouldn't have to deal with the drama.  It hurts me when I am always watching what "HE" wants to watch.  I don't get into certain types of shows/movies.  Sorry I don't.  Especially when he watches it for hours on end.  Then when a show comes on, that we usually watch while he was at work...he expects me to just give it up.  I don't ask for a whole lot, but at least let me watch the couple shows I do watch.   Our TV in the bedroom is broken but it still plays but with weird colors.  Someday we will afford getting it fixed til' then we have to deal with it. Oh and two...YOU MUST rent Bedtime Stories with Adam Sandler...good family movie.  Sorry for the jump in subject.  Here's to wishing the night would get better....

I found out on Saturday that a friend of mine lost his Son to natural causes. What makes it so sad, he was only 17 years old. I feel so bad for the family right now. I don't know anything else, but finding out ALOT of people knew this wonderful kid. My friend who told me, is best friends wit his Father so it really hit them hard. I am so sad right now, because of him being so young. So I am sending my condolences out to the family.

Woke up to rain this morning and its starting again. I've been on twitter, I'm not one for talking a whole lot...I tend to shy away unless its something that strikes a note. Half the time on their, reading all the celebrity people who really knows if its them or not? And I don't want to be a obessed fan and asking all kinds of silly questions. I will never be a celebrity, even though in my teens I sure wanted too but have seen even famous people go thru rough times. Sometimes they come out on top, sometimes they don't. I live my life with my Son and do the best I can. I don't ask for awhole lot but manage to live for what's been given to me. I am at a happy place right now. I think my teenage dreams have come full circle. Yes I will talk about it again, but seeing my teenage dream in concert the other night it was honestly like a dream. Here I was standing in awe, seeing someone in person. And seeing the one person, whom I found to be very shy and still is...on stage. He had suffered panic attacks and I remember him being on Oprah and watching him suffer thru this pain. I've seen that fear before, and it touched me so deeply, that I hurt for him. Even though I've never met nor will I ever meet him but felt his fear burn a hole thru my soul. Its something you can't describe. I don't like crowds, I don't like stop signs, I don't like merging onto busy roads, I don't like Walmart on the weekends, and most of all...I have a fear of driving when the lane ends and people try to run you off the road. I am not a confrontational person, I have always been a wallflower and tend to sit back at parties. I guess you can say, I have lived a laid back kind of life. The only excitement I get, is ...I don't know. I guess I need to start huh? I guess when my basement flooded a few years back and I lost most of my sentimental items especially my NKOTB stuff, as I realized the other night at the concert...I had stuff, some pins, posters, books, a full body flag of one of the guys....it hit me that I had no part of my teenage years at the concert like 99% of the other people. Talk about a timewarp...but came to grips that it was all I needed was to just be there. My life had come full circle at that moment. As my Boyfriend said, I guess its time to grow up...I told him. I didn't want too. I wanted to live in that moment forever. It will be forever in my heart though.

Granted, I have no voice and I can't hear at the moment. I am good to go. Oops, just yelled a little too loud at the cat. Scared them all. Seeing one of my all time favorite groups tonight, I have fulfilled my dreams. Thank you GUYS for an awesome show. I could kick myself, I USED to know the words to all the songs but was floored when I couldn't remember half the words but knew the dance moves. I guess you could say, I lived in my teenage fantasy tonight. And it felt so right for the first time in my life that I let my hair down...LITERALLY. Not realizing how long it is....surprised myself on how much fun I had and what I have been missing out on. I never got to go out and have fun with the girls. I will say though one thing that upset me...was all the woman drinking not just one at a time it was both hands, trip after trip. Sorry....I like to be in control of myself...its just me so nevermind my sorry self. Just glad that it was a great night, even though Jordan broke his shoe and the part where Jonathan was crawling down the stairs....really scared me. I will admit. My Son's Name is Jonathan...no coincidence neither. My Ex liked the name so I agreed and deep down had other thoughts...lol. My Son thinks its great. I also have been told, its a good strong professional name. Yay! So again. Thank you NKOTB. You rocked my socks, and then some. Come back, will make it a point to be there again.

In your wildest dreams as a teenager. Be a fan of a boy group, and totally love them insanely crazy? I have. When I was a teen, I was so in love with the New Kids on the Block, like to the point of obsessing with them. Yes I was that nuts. Sorry people, I loved the beat, their looks and their outlook on life. At one point in time, they came around this area well before the iWireless Center was built and if I am correct they performed in Iowa City, IA....during a SNOW STORM. They got stranded and ate the Iowa Machine Shed. Yes, I remember where they ate. They were awesome. I still listened to them to this day, but one never forgets their first love? loves? lol. These guys were it. Later on, my taste in music changed to all kinds, as I kept my options open and loved all types of music. Crazy huh? Give me Metallica, ZZTop, Brad Paisley, NSYNC, Queensryche, or anything that just sounds good to me...and I am happy. Just don't ask me whats on my Ipod....lol. Such a mixture. But tomorrow night. My dream of 20 years will come true. New Kids On The Block will perform here in the Quad Cities...I have been giddy as a teenage girl all day just thinking about it. My Best Friend Dawn is going with me, and then just today a really good friend of mine bought two tickets, one for herself and her daughter....it will be her very first concert ever. And she's so excited to have this one as her first. My first concert ever was...Cheap Trick, followed by Joan Jett and then Def Leppard...oh yeah baby. Saw them...3 times so far cause they come in close second to my NKOTB. I hope tomorrow night rocks, as this will be my all time dream.