This is a blog about me, my life and my family!

We could get a way. Take a vacation, find a cute little boutique hotels somewhere and enjoy some time away from all the chaos and drama, which never seems to end. I do however enjoy gardening, and getting all the news flowers and shrubs in at work. I get to take care of everything that comes in! In fact today, I did a display and within minutes it was gone. I was so surprised that someone bought the hanging baskets as fast as they did. I can't wait for tomorrow when we get our truck in. We are expecting some really cool stuff!!!

It seems like the day went so quickly. It didn't start so good but went by so quickly. And before I knew it, it was almost 6pm and I had to get home as soon as possible. And we ate dinner about 8pm...oops.

I noticed lately that my Son is starting to develop that awkward acne on his face, well his nose and chin area. Very soon here I will be searching for some treatment for acne because I would hate for him to go thru that awful phase of acne. Even though we still go thru it thru our adult lives, in my teens I absolutely hated it!!! Anyone know of any good treatments?

Of the work I've been doing lately. Even though its tough and alot of people don't realize exactly how hard it can get. The people I work with are so awesome. I heard one of them say today as it was a comment and it blew me away. She was showing one of the girls what needs to be done and she goes, "well if she hadn't done it already here's what needs to be done, and she done got it all done!" She came up to me and told me I was fast! I just responded that I learned alot from past mistakes.

We have been scavenging online with the housing listings out in Arizona, granted if we had some of those Wilmington NC real estate listings that are so in detail it would be a better thing. Its been crazy just trying to find the exact amount of bedrooms needed and something a yard possibly. I am not holding my breath cause I know its going to be hard.

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I came home about 12:30 today, tried calling my Mom to see if she was gonna be home. After our conversation last night, something inside of me told me to go be with her. But I was so tired and worn out I had no energy. So today, my Dad had called and I asked where my Mom was and he said over at my Sisters house. Ok, that's cool I am not going to call and bother her. So finally later on she calls me and I ask if she is heading home anytime soon. She says yes. So I sit and wait for her. I haven't seen my Mom in awhile and yes I truly miss her. I want to spend some time with her. But I guess, as usual me being the oldest I have always had to share my time with her and to not be selfish, I always let my younger brother and Sisters go first. I just wonder when will it be my time? She needed me last night, and I want to be there for her. But I feel so lost right now, and hurt. But not by her just by what is going on. And I just miss her. So much!!!!!

Not much to say...still reeling over this bad, BAD dream I had last night. It was too graphic, too real...and tore my heart out. It burned me. I woke up Couldn't stop shaking...then cried!!!! OMG. I couldn't believe I was too blame. I grabbed her hand...she slipped. Just like that....she was gone. I hope this dream doesn't come true...please don't. I tried calling my Mom twice tonight, but she didn't answer and that really bothers me cause I know once she reads this, she will call me and demand to know who it was that slipped. I don't want to tell her. I hate these dreams. I really do. I am going to bed now...going to think sweet pleasant dreams....hot fudge sundaes...lol.

Joined a exercise facility, its time for me to get motivated and get healthier for me. I think I need to get me some of those MBT shoes that is especially use for exercising. Cause I know that the shoes I have aren't the best shoes for exercising. If I remember right there was someone wearing those shoes, and she mentioned something to the fact that she is able to walk more freely, and her feet never bothered her. Which is exactly what I need. My feet end up hurting me no matter what.

All day. This never happens especially two days in a row. If that tells you anything, it shows how sick I have been for the past 2 days. I just brought my laptop out of the bedroom, just turned it on like 10 minutes ago about 5 o'clock AT NIGHT!!! I tried taking some muscle relaxers because when you throw up, all night long your muscles in your sides, arms and head begins to ache. And with my Sciatic nerve really giving me a hard time, its been a rough day. Like someone took a damn baseball bat to me....and beat me repeatedly.