This is a blog about me, my life and my family!

We just watched Marley and Me...and let me tell you something. All three of us are bawling. Me, My Son and My Boyfriend...all cried. Makes us love our kitties even more. Even our one kitty who can be a pain in a rear...we are changing his name to Marley...cause he can be a pain...but yet so loving.

Let me tell you. I woke up, feeling like someone put me on a merry go round, and stood me up real quick. You know that dizzy as hell feeling, then you walk and you stumble into the wall. And having cats at your feet meowing, cause they be spoiled rotten and only eat at rise and shine hours of the day. What normally takes me just a few minutes on the pot, took me over 15 minutes. Nothing gross, just the dizziness and having to hold onto the tub and sink for leverage so I wouldn't fall is what took me so long. I was that scared. I tried to get dressed. Got as far as my pants, and almost fell over. My boyfriend goes, I will take your Son to school just lay down. So I did. I don't remember much after that. I do remember him bringing me something to eat because he thought it was from lack of food. Nope. Didn't help. So I laid back down, so incoherent and not knowing the time kinda of incoherent. My Boyfriend around 1pm make this Chinese meal that was already prepared in a bag, we shared that and omg it was so good. That was it, til' dinner time. My boyfriend again makes dinner. Tacos...real quick and easy. Got everything all done, served up my Son's plate...which he scarfed down. I got mine, sat down took a bite of the hardshell taco....and BAM. Threw it up right away. It seems the hard shells were VERY FUCKING OLD. He didn't pay attention to the expiration date on the box. He grabbed what was on sale. The last box at that. Hmmm. Well. The Expiration date was November of 2007. OMG, after cooking them in the oven they smelled ok, not knowing anything was wrong. And after them sitting awhile on the counter a good 5 minutes...the smell was horrendous. They smelled of something rotten, and wreaked of ethanol. The house began to smell of it, the after taste of it was absolutely the worst ever..... My Boyfriend ate one taco, and thought it needed to be cooked longer....and after I threw up onto my plate he decided to look at the expiration date and brought me the box. I took it right over to the store. They took the bad box of what was left...checked their shelf. Bad News. They were sold out, they had a huge sale on them. The manager is very concerned and wonders how many were expired then sold to the public. They are on alert now for possible sickness. Well just about 5 minutes ago...my Boyfriend just came out of the bathroom....it sounded bad. Everything he ate, didn't digest....So now I have to let the store know when they call tomorrow to check on us how things are going. I am worried about my Son....right now he's all flushed. I am watching him like a hawk. I just have a bad feeling. I hope this isn't a start of something really bad here. The store did something in return. They refunded my money, gave me a free box of fresh taco shells and a $20 gift card. I told them it was too much, they manager was very persistant and said, "No it is my job as a manager to make sure MY customers are taken care of!" And that he would call me tomorrow to check on us, personally.

While driving home from my Mom's, my Son and I were having a little talk....he goes. "Mom, I want a Brother or Sister!". I was like..um, ok. That would be great. I said to him that I would have to lose some weight for that to happen. So maybe if I can find a appetite suppressant and start exercising, that maybe I could lose weight and maybe that would happen. I know he's lonely and I regret not having more kids sooner. But he's a handful...but love him to pieces.

Here's to hoping our future is going to get better from here. Its cold here, I have said in the past that I would love to live somewhere warm year round. We have been debating on moving to another state and with my Son's Father already moving to another state it didn't make my decision any harder. The only thing holding me back...is my family. Its going to be difficult. I can only hope that my Mom takes lots of pictures for me. I am having issues with the school district here. It seems they have a strict policy on bullying. But, my issue is. My Son gets bullied on a daily basis....NOTHING gets done. But when my Son finally stands up for himself...he gets in serious trouble. I am plain fed up and tired of it. My Son weighs approx. 73lbs., he's small. He's also 11 years old. This other boy whom he had a confrontation with weighs close to 150lbs....and they said my Son was picking on this kid and bullying him. WTF? I don't think so. This kid threatened to pick my Son up and throw him, which why MY Son reacted the way he did. I will stand behind my Son 100%. I don't care. What I might do for awhile is Home School my Son, only because I would feel safer being a new city, new state and get adjusted. I have to make sure I get all my records in order. I have so much to do. Seriously, so much to do. Any words of advice on how to handle such a HUGE move? We are talking moving 1,595 miles to the west to the desert. I think I have some idea, but seriously need more information on doing such a thing. I know I need: Medical Records School Records Prescription Medicines Go thru old stuff...THROW away..lol. Find housing Get bills in order, forwarding address. Find a bank in new location Find out laws in new location Find out how soon new id's are needed in new location Burn up the phone line making calls...Right?

All night long my Son has been doing some very sweet things. He's been in his room, thinking about what had happened today. He's taken to his drawing. He's been drawing me pictures that I used to draw at his age, and he's never seen the pictures. He told me that he loves Art. That impresses me. He has my art skills. But I do want him to be successful in his life. So I have to remind him to enjoy his art but to keep his options open. So for now...I am going to bed early tonight. My Son had made the comment he was tired when all this fighting started....so tonight. I am changing. I am going to bed as well.

Today was my breaking point. Today while sitting at the school, the Principal calls me with 10 minutes left of the day to tell me that my Son bit TWO different kids today. And frankly, it sent me over the edge. I am so sick and tired of my SON being singled out. Granted he was only joking around with the one kid, but that ONE kid took it a little too far and threatened MY SON to pick him up and throw him. And obviously, my Son got scared and defended himself and bit the kid. Now mind you, this kid that my Son bit is three times the size of my Son. Now why would my Son who is smaller than this other kid...just go and bite him? Seriously, are you kidding me? It makes me so mad to hear that my Son is being singled out, especially knowing a week ago a friend of mines Daughter is being bullied at the same school....and my name was mentioned on why I didn't do something about it. When she isn't even my Daughter, so I did go in and let her know. Now in return this happens to my Son. Second time my Son has defended himself and he gets in trouble. Its bullshit, and I am tired of it. My Son isn't perfect, but he doesn't provoke trouble, he doesn't start trouble, and he only defends himself when he is cornered. I guess, I am just a old fashioned Parent....I am not raising a Wus for a Son Dammit!!!

Nothing like waking up and hearing the first words out of someone's mouth. "My Last day is Friday.!" What more is going to happen? And what really irritates the shit out of me, is hearing all these commercials about how we are not really in a recession and that we are still making the same money. BULLSHIT. I say. They are not the ones getting laid off...YET. Once you get laid off, and you search and search for a new job. Its not easy. It really makes me mad when I hear those commercials that we make the same amount of money and spend the same, blah, blah, blah. I don't make the same amount of money, and I get unemployment, I only get a third of what I would get. But my bills are the same, just behind. Except for a select few that I paid off with income tax. Now, I don't know what's going to happen here. I am not so beyond stressed its not even funny. We have the light bill due on the 8th, insurance due on the 4th and 17th, our weekly payments for my Son's bed which I can't afford outright due every Friday. I don't get consistant child support because he is laid off as well. So people can't say that we make the same...its affecting EVERY ONE.

It seems no matter what you do you can't please everyone! I guess it's why I don't surf the blog net as much, I like to read a even amount of negative and positive instead of all negative all the time. I guess I will stick with the people I know.

Recently a friend of mine had gotten her internet hooked up, she was new to it but definitely needed it for her child's homework needs.   But she needed information on setting up a network in her home, so she could keep an eye on her child's activities while online.  Since I have access to the internet all the time, I told her of some website to look up.  She then proceeded to ask if I knew of a site that had all that information on ONE page, instead of going to a retail site that had one thing, then would have to go back to the beginning of the site and start over.

So I found her a Buying Guide that gave her all the information that she would ever need. She called me up, and of course asked questions of the basics but was impressed by her words of how the buying guide actually had exactly what she was looking for, and for what equipment she needed to network her computers together. Before she called me, she made a call to a retail store that specializes in computers and by the time she hung up the phone, she was lost and confused. So it seems all my friends call me. I love it when I am able to help someone, I really do.

When they were asking her where her access point was, she said that she had no clue what that meant. I think she really appreciated being able to click on the links within the page to learn what each piece of equipment was.

She also wanted my input on what Router to use, I told her the brand I had but it wasn't on the list because I bought mine thru the internet company. But did recommend the LINKSYS only because I have a few other friends who use it and its extremely easy to use. I found that from personal experience. My Friend Dawn's Parents needed help getting their laptops hooked up the to Wireless Internet thru the LINKSYS, found out exactly how simple it was and very impressed by how easy it was.

After all is said and done, my friend who needed help getting her Child's computer set-up for the internet she has since told her Parents whom are not so internet savy and they too are happy with their results. So it feels good to start this chain reaction of helping others.

A couple weeks ago, I was given the opportunity to have my Son review a game for the Nintendo DS. I had never heard of the game, but my Son had so he was excited and couldn't wait to play the game. We had actually had to go out of town so it was perfect opportunity for him to play. So he started playing, and he goes...Mom, all it is, is just words and talking. When do I play the game. He soon got bored but continued to play. SO it left me thinking maybe its for an older boy or girl to play. Thank goodness my Boyfriends Son had come over to try it out himself. He had played it, said the same thing but understood it because he is a big PokeMon player. I had him write down exactly what he thought of the game, so it would definitely be from his point of view. Here it goes... "It was pretty good, probably a game for people with more patience because of the all the reading. May not be for people who like games with non-stop action from the get go. People who have played Pokemon of Legend of Zelda games on the DS will probably like this game!" quoted from my Boyfriend's 17 year old Son. I don't think you can get any more honesty than that. Especially coming from a kid who can pretty conquer any game within a 1-2 day period. Trust me, he does. On the weekends his kids are here, they are constantly finding games to learn AND beat. And depending on how often he plays Blue Dragon, he said it would probably take a little while which is a good challenge for him. All in all, they both liked the game after all the reading was done in the beginning and would like to continue to play to see where the ending is.