U Gotta Be Kiddin Me

For anything I post on my blog, I have a right to my own opinion. I WILL also say, leave me out of things do not bring me into any situation unless I have said or done something. And if something in my blog resembles your life, well OH WELL that means there is more than one person with the same damn problem. So don't assume that its about you. I have enough of my OWN problems than to deal with someone else's issues. And when I say enough of my OWN, what I would give right now to live in peace and harmony is priceless. Nothing like a world of constant whining about shit that really doesn't matter, because life is too damn short to worry about this or that. Tomorrow is a NEW day, start fresh....start anew and for Pete's Sake....Enjoy life for once instead of constant living in the past which is what I have done....So here's to making a BETTER Future!!!!!!

Its really not. Life seems to throw shit at you when you least expect it. Somethings are happening in my life, things that are just too difficult to talk about right now. Things that resemble others but yet is so far from being the same. I will say, I found out on Thursday that my Son's Father got laid off, yet again. So that means even harder times for us. It really upsets me, but I have learned to cope and deal with it. Because after all, the judge told me that we cannot depend on child support. Even though its ordered for a specific reason of support of the child, it cannot be depended on and find other means of earning your income. Here I am 11 years later, have been thru some major crap with my Son's Father getting laid off numerous times a year. Its funny how every year at this time, his Father always seems to owe me money come income tax time. And he calls me all upset. I am not the one behind here, I am the one having to take my Son back and forth to school, doctors, Scouts, making sure he's fed and basically tending to his every need. Again its not my problem he's behind, if you get laid off....per the Judge at the Court Hearing...if you get behind on a court order it is up to the person ordered to pay it and keep it up to date otherwise there are consequences. I, being the custodial parent have responsibilities in taking care of MY Son. There are numerous things that happen that his Father doesn't even know about. I don't question certain things, but some things I do. Like the issue at hand, that I cannot discuss here because again...its really too personal. I will say, what may happen is going to be very difficult and I foresee some very tough times and alot of crying, not only with me but with my family. My Heart hurts, that some people can be really nasty and have no thoughts or feelings for others. And then actions are done, the person placing the action really has no impact on what really is happening. Chances are those people, only care about one thing...and one thing only....Themselves. Which is exactly why I left my marriage. And now it will affect my Son....Forever.

We went to Wallllmart this morning, and I could swear that every single rude person was there. I would looking at a product on the shelf, and someone would walk up right in front of me and grab something, No excuse me or anything. Then we would be walking down a aisle, stop, look at something, and someone would come around the corner like a bat out of hell. NEVER said excuse me, but cleared his throat like he was God Almighty himself. Right then and there, I told my BF...WOOOOOW. Walllllmart is really bad today with all the rude ass mofos up in here. The guy looked at me, and I just stared back at him. He totally pissed me off by clearing his throat expecting us to move out of his way. I then saw him again, I cleared my throat and made the comment..."must be a hairball!" I guess it one reason I dislike walllllmart. Is all the rude people that shop there. I try to be civil, til' they tick me off.

I really want to go back to school and finish my degree. I had gone for business information because it had all the good and fun stuff. If I were to head back to school to really do something with myself I would have to look into MS nursing. Amazingly, I was given a link to a Fully Accredited online program. Sometimes people don't think about online learning with getting a good degree and getting a excellent job without having to physically attend a school. With the way the world is nowadays, we can learn anything as adults. Saint Xavier University's degrees are also accepted and recognized by employers, so if that makes a difference in your decision in wanting to return back to school. Then checking into their website you can find all the important information with all the credentials, and you can even request information via their website. You can also apply for financial aid to see if you qualify for help and your education. From my experience, with schooling and financial aid. It helped tremendously with the costs of textbooks and classroom fees. I remember one of my books costed me almost $200 for one simple book. But when you think about it, in the end. That little cost, helps you with a education that can turn into a career of a lifetime.

Just been busy these last couple of days. I've been going thru like a ton of paperwork because like, I never throw anything away that has personal information on it unless I shred it. Which I have a box that needs to be shredded sometime tonight because garbage day is tomorrow. I have gotten all papers sorted and in their correct folders. I am finding stuff from 5 years ago. So that stuff is going in the shredder. I had piles of paperwork in 5 different places, papers that consisted of DHS, Unemployment, Child Support, personal papers like Birth Certificates, School Physicals, and all that stuff was scattered amongst the piles. Like I said, its all organized and labeled to where I know where its all at. I even folded a couple loads of laundry in the process. But see what started all of this is my BF's car. He's had paycheck stubs in his vehicle for years, like 4 years to be exact. And of course you know pay stubs have personal information on it and that means if anyone broke in....there goes all your personal information for any potential burglar right? I am about to finish cleaning off my desk, its nice seeing the color of my desk again!!!!

I spent it watching the entire Inauguration yesterday.   I know I am going to sound like alot of other people, the only thing I wanted to see was the Bush fly home.  Granted I cried, laughed and made a few comments.  It was a memorable moment not only for me, but every Single American.   Now I hope that he changes the way American runs, wouldn't it be wonderful? Then last night we had Scouts, so I dropped the Boy off and I took his electronics games with me to play. I tend to sit back, and observe what is happening. Well, I gotta go. I have a doc appt. here at 10:45am for my eye. Hopefully we can get to the bottom of the discomfort.

Just got done with a couple loads of laundry, I have at least two more to do. I cleaned the bathroom, started the dishes after making a half-way decent dinner. Since only getting $11 in assistance, it doesn't cover much. So we have a very limited food budget. I am hoping to get this job, it will help out very much. And I can't wait til' tax time either, its not much but its enough to at least pay off a couple of bills, small ones anyways. I also have to change my car insurance company. Tomorrow, I have alot of printing out paperwork, some for court and some for income tax purposes. I've done two of my friends already, well their income taxes anyway. So at least I will find out tomorrow maybe when they will be getting their taxes back. Then on the 21st, I have a Eye Doc appt. My Eye isn't getting any better, I am still having issues with it drying out severely. I had a rough time Sat. Night and then jumping in the pool. OH MY GOOOOOOD it burned soooo bad. I tried to keep my eyes closed but with kids splashing, it was no help. I am nervous because this condition can lead to blindness and that is what scares me right now.

I am sitting here, watching a movie on Lifetime called Custody, how ironic that a show comes on like that when people in your life are going thru a tough time and how it comes about.  But anyway, I am sitting here all warm and snuggly with my kitties.  My lil' Delilah is laying on her back with her head on the pillow and Gidget doing the Mommy thing of cleaning her baby.  I love it. Oh and I am still extremely sore from playing volleyball for over an hour this morning from 1am til' almost 3am.  Because at 3am was check in time for my Son to have hall duty.  I don't think I mentioned the food that was served last night and this morning, oh my goodness the nachos were to die for.  I need to find that nacho cheese sauce cause it was AWESOME, not that I really need it but it was awesome!!!!

I've been reading about the Peanut Butter recalls, I found a list not sure if its up to date, but will say if your a Mom of young Children and buy snacks for them please go thru what you have and make sure you have none of the stuff listed below, if so throw it away.

Here's a list of products voluntarily recalled by the Kellogg Co. because they could be contaminated with salmonella from a Georgia peanut processing facility:

• Austin Quality Foods Cheese Crackers with Peanut Butter - all sizes
• Austin Quality Foods Cheese & Peanut Butter Sandwich Crackers - all sizes
• Austin Quality Foods Mega Stuffed Cheese Crackers with Peanut Butter - all sizes
• Austin Quality Foods PB & J Cracker Sandwiches - all sizes
• Austin Quality Foods Super Snack Pack Sandwich Crackers
• Austin Quality Foods Chocolate Peanut Butter Sandwich Crackers - all sizes
• Austin Quality Foods Toasty Crackers with Peanut Butter - all sizes
• Austin Quality Foods Reduced Fat Cheese & Peanut Butter Sandwich Crackers
• Austin Quality Foods Reduced Fat Toasty Crackers with Peanut Butter Sandwich Crackers
• Austin Quality Foods Cookie/Cracker Pack
• Austin Quality Foods Variety Pack
• Keebler Cheese & Peanut Butter Sandwich Crackers - all sizes
• Keebler Toast & PB'n J Flavored Sandwich Crackers - all sizes
• Keebler Toast & Peanut Butter Sandwich Crackers - all sizes
• Famous Amos Peanut Butter Cookies (2- and 3-ounce)
• Keebler Soft Batch Homestyle Peanut Butter Cookies (2.5-ounce)

I have yet to eat today.  I've lost all appetite.  My heart aches, and its tearing me apart.  I really can't justify actions or words but during the night I had a conversation with Mom of a young Cub Scout and it broke my heart.  I really can't discuss the topic because it will get turned into something and I would have to remove my post due to lurkers and trolls.  But my heart aches for this Mom, and losing a loved one to death it tore me apart.  I will say, she was trying to keep the little Cub Scout life as normal as possible for him but you could tell in his eyes and his heart losing his Daddy to Cancer was difficult. Then this other Cub Scout got hurt and you could tell he was playing us all.  He kept saying his foot hurt, but then he'd take off down the aisle.  I also found out one got taken to the hospital, which I posted already.  Oh and then, this group of 5 boys decided to keep running.  So I cut them off, and reminded them to walk in the halls that its just like a school and to walk.  Well they took off up the stairs.  I followed them, one boy goes.  I don't have to listen to you.  I went right then and there and got a ScoutMaster, and oops.  You don't mess with me, and you don't mess with the ScoutMaster.  So every time they would walk past me, they would say.   Hi.  Ms. Fritsch.  Can you say WOW?  Granted being a babysitter it was difficult and to NOT get paid was even harder...lol.  But the time with my Son was definitely priceless.  Best time ever. In a couple of weeks, we are signing up with the Y program again and we are going to be going every single day that we can to get ourselves healthy.  I so can't wait, its something I've been wanting to do now for awhile and I have to wait until tax time.