Jan 29 2009
Not sure anymore…
I am in a depressing rut right now. I've had one of the worst days ever as a Parent and I really don't know how its going to end. My heart aches, my heart is numb and I have been a total crybaby since getting home. I love my Son so much that it hurts right now. My Son is my WHOLE world and have made him my whole world. He is someone I've always wanted in my life even as a child I had dreamed of having kids, and lots of them. And here I am fighting for the ONE that I was lucky enough to have.
I need help right now, I need someone to tell its going to be alright.
I think this is the lowest I have ever felt in my life....besides first splitting up and spending countless hours in my PJ's when my Son was a baby...yes I was that depressed.
Well I am off to bed early tonight. I am going to need it in the morning.
