Its really not. Life seems to throw shit at you when you least expect it. Somethings are happening in my life, things that are just too difficult to talk about right now. Things that resemble others but yet is so far from being the same.
I will say, I found out on Thursday that my Son's Father got laid off, yet again. So that means even harder times for us. It really upsets me, but I have learned to cope and deal with it. Because after all, the judge told me that we cannot depend on child support. Even though its ordered for a specific reason of support of the child, it cannot be depended on and find other means of earning your income. Here I am 11 years later, have been thru some major crap with my Son's Father getting laid off numerous times a year. Its funny how every year at this time, his Father always seems to owe me money come income tax time. And he calls me all upset. I am not the one behind here, I am the one having to take my Son back and forth to school, doctors, Scouts, making sure he's fed and basically tending to his every need. Again its not my problem he's behind, if you get laid off....per the Judge at the Court Hearing...if you get behind on a court order it is up to the person ordered to pay it and keep it up to date otherwise there are consequences. I, being the custodial parent have responsibilities in taking care of MY Son. There are numerous things that happen that his Father doesn't even know about. I don't question certain things, but some things I do. Like the issue at hand, that I cannot discuss here because again...its really too personal. I will say, what may happen is going to be very difficult and I foresee some very tough times and alot of crying, not only with me but with my family.
My Heart hurts, that some people can be really nasty and have no thoughts or feelings for others. And then actions are done, the person placing the action really has no impact on what really is happening. Chances are those people, only care about one thing...and one thing only....Themselves. Which is exactly why I left my marriage. And now it will affect my Son....Forever.
