U Gotta Be Kiddin Me

Archive for October, 2008

Earlier while painting…

My Son got into a fight with my friend Dawn's Nephew. They totally bump heads, because their personalities are so much alike that they fight. And tonight was the end of the rope for me. My Son, my sweet Son actually bite him and broke skin. I am so not happy right now. For how badly I want to help her, I cannot have my Son and her Nephew in the same house/yard. Her family is trying so hard to get her moved in by this weekend. Her house has four bedrooms, but one of the room she is turning into a TV room/Game Room but not sure about the home theater furniture because that room isn't very big. But her kitchen is HUGE. I am sure she will get into the house by this weekend.

Been a long night.

I've been helping my friend get her house painted. She has so much more work to do. It seems like a never ending battle for her. So frustrating for her right now. For me...I am torn right now.

I think..

Last week when I went for my employment screening appt. I left one of my papers down there at the office. I have looked everywhere for this piece of paper. It had the number of the lady I am supposed to call for the Health Fair next week. I did however email my director and she will get me her number because I have to make sure all my bases are covered. I will say, My Mom has made a comment to me about being so busy. Alot of people don't realize that when your laid off work, they think that you have nothing to do which means you can cater to their needs. But, its the opposite. Your so busy, its a never ending ploy. It happens, and then when people ask you to do things for them and your busy they get all moody with you. This is the way life is, accept it and move on. I am busy every single day, whether its working online or running errands, picking my Son up from school or Scouts. I am busy.

Hopefully fixing my van today.

Its been several days since I drove my van, I love my baby but for the safety of others. I chose not to drive, because of not having brake lights it was deemed not safe. I was scared out of my mind the night it happened as I had the kids with me and it was dark. So today, hopefully its getting fixed.

Getting nervous now.

Next week, I will have a booth set-up with the company that I am a Independent Consultant with at a Open House/Health Fair. I am really excited about this. But I was thinking last night of all the items I need to take with me. I know I am going to need tons of pens especially if I want to get business. I wish I had pens that had my name and number on them. I really want to make a go of this business while I can. I know my director quit her job to do this full time and she lives in the most beautiful house ever. That is my goal, to become a more strong person and be more outgoing and have some fun already. With the way my week has been going, it has to get better. It has too. I am about to rumble thru some paper work and get some more stuff together. So much to do, so little time.

My Night totally sucked.

We spent most of the night trying to get my boyfriend's car running. I made the HUGE mistake today of leaving the lights on. It was rainy when I left, so of course I always turn the lights on. Well, when I made it to my destination...I forgot about them and it ran the battery down. To the point of, you turn the key over and its TICK TICK. So its been one of the worst nights ever. I hate this. And not having any money whatsoever makes it harder. When will it ever get better? What people don't realize is, I try my hardest to hide my stress but when it finally reaches the boiling point I just break down and cry. Going to bed...too much shit for one day.

Just when it couldn’t get any worse.

It does. First my van decides to stop working in the brake light dept., I think its the stopswitch thingy. So does my Boyfriend, then today while waiting for my Son. I wore his battery down, NOT thinking about the headlights being on because it was rainy when I left, I always for safety turn my lights one. Well, the time I sat there...it ran the battery down completely. Sooooo, now we are waiting for the mail. I am supposed to get my check...I hope it comes. Otherwise, not sure whats gonna happen with vehicles tonight and getting to work. I am seriously, NOT happy at the moment. Its frustrating, having NO money for weeks now its been extremely difficult. The money I do get, goes for gas. Well, I haven't had any money for over two weeks. This past weekend, I was camping well it left my Boyfriend here at home with hardly any food. The stress of our financial economy is taking its toll on everyone, and us too. Its difficult.

Bedtime.

Yep, its bedtime for me. I am beyond exhausted. Too tired to do anything. We got home late last night from camping and hayrack rides with the scouts. We ended up going out to the boonies for a hayrack ride and it was so nice, and cold of course. But driving thru the tractor path, I got stuck a few times in the mud. But I can figure out how to get out pretty well. But I hit something underneath and did some damage to something because I ended up with no brake lights. So now my van is undriveable. For the safety of others, I will not drive it. We checked the fuses, wiring that is visible but still no brake lights. I know its something silly, so hopefully we can get it fixed here shortly. But as of right now, I am extremely sore. As they say, Pain is Weakness leaving your body. I walked a good 5 miles yesterday morning. I don't mind, it felt good. I ate very little food. Drank alot of water. Pretty much starved myself a bit. So now, its bedtime. Gonna go to bed and relax. I may read my book some more. Reading this book is something I didn't expect to enjoy. But there are parts that are mirrored of my life. I will share more about it later.

I’m home.

And I will post more tomorrow when I don't have such a headache.  But wanted to share a pic of what my morning looked like around 7ish...such a beautiful and peaceful site.

Been busy today…

Had a rough and somble morning but I will be fine.  Life is too short.  I shouldn't have to ask questions on why, what or where to anyone.  So this weekend is about my Son.  Its a fun-filled weekend with the Boy Scouts.  We are heading out to the Boy Scout camp for Halloween at Loud Thunder.   Our boys will be helping the smaller boys in having fun.  We have Haunted Houses, Hayrack Rides, and all kinds of fun things going on.  I am taking my camera with to take lots of pictures.  I have decided just a few minutes ago to put all my pictures on private so unless your a family member or friend you won't have access to my account.  But I refuse to put my blog on private as I have nothing to hide from anyone.  My pictures are another story, they are personal photos of my family and things that interest me.  I try to keep everything honest, up front and to the point.  I have never been the type of person to backstab anyone ever.   As my Mother has taught me to respect everyone, to always listen to both sides of any situation that may arise.  And the most important thing to ever listen to, was to never listen to gossip because its what tears family and friends apart.  I thank my Mother for teaching me these values, she is a awesome person.  So with this being said, I am anxious for this weekend to start.  Its gonna be cold tonight but I will survive.  Its only one night.   It will be lots of fun, food and whatever else that is going to happen.   I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend, enjoy your families and no matter what.  Love them.  Life is too short because you never know what tomorrow brings.