U Gotta Be Kiddin Me

I am calling my doctor to make an appt. It seems everything I eat, really disrupts my stomach. It causes pain and major bloating. To the point of having to run to the bathroom after every meal. I am talking within 5 minutes of beginning a meal, my stomach is just being torn up. I am afraid. I am afraid of what they might say. I am also going to get some life insurance quotes because you just never know. I have a feeling I know what is wrong, which means I will have to get a scope. I’ve had issues with heartburn for a long, long time and frankly it scares me. They have removed polyps from my esophagus. So tomorrow I will make the call for an appt. and I will get to the bottom of this. I am just plain tired of eating a simple meal then having to run to the restroom. I hate going out to eat because I don’t like using public restrooms. Something that happened as a child I guess. I remember it was break time in school and we were all lined up to go. Then all of a sudden another girl obviously had to go #2 and it was quite loud. Everyone tormented her for weeks. I am always afraid that will happen to me…lol. I know not funny but still.

Watching the news they are having a segment on The Duggar Family and how they are having a new show begin tonight on TLC. And how they announced they are expecting baby 18. And the even better part is, their oldest Son got married over the weekend. I am simply amazed at how many children they have. They say the more kids you have the easier it gets. What I would give to have a couple more kids. Wouldn’t that be great? I am serious here.

Well, I have a few things to get finished around here. My Son isn’t feeling 100% so I may have to go pick him up from school. I always tell him to at least attempt school, it shows effort.

Well at least in the living room here. There is very inadequate indoor lighting here. We have two lights in here, one table lamp and one floor lamp. It would be nice to have better lighting. Maybe its a good thing though, not having extra lighting saves energy. Speaking of energy, this little girl needs to head to bed. I have a rough weekend. Starting on Friday, I was extremely tired and went to bed. Only to be woke up around midnight by my boyfriend then having to smell something burning from outside from the neighbors. It bites because I cannot breathe with that smell. Anyway, I think I fell asleep around 2-3am. I hate that. So now, I am going to head to bed…and sleep!!!!

For my Little boy to grow into a fine young man. I am so not looking forward to the awkward time though. I think we all remember those days of zits and face blemishes. So I am hoping that I can find the right treatments for acne for when those days happen. It would be nice for him to remain his beautiful baby skin. He’s already had those nasty little black heads on his nose. He’s washed his face correctly but they remained forever. Poor kid. He’s also started getting those dark hairs on his legs. That is something I was ready for when he mentioned it. I will give him his space when it comes time, will keep his door shut when needed and to respect his privacy. Its something that everyone, no matter what should have is their own privacy.

Thirty minutes into the show, and I already cannot stand Randy, The Wedding Guy. He made a comment at the very beginning that he isn’t married and will never get married. To me, he’s a selfish man and I don’t like that in a man. So now that he already got injured…oh please send him home…PULEASE!!!!!

Yes, I say ritual. Because on Thursday Nights my shows are on. Beginning at 7pm……Survivor:Gabon Earth’s Last Eden is on, then at 9pm….the Final Season of ER is on. I am so, stoked right now. And I will say, I DO NOT ANSWER my phone during these times. Two hours a week, I should be allowed to myself. I know selfish right? Ah well.

What is needed to lose weight is a little help. I have been seeing commercials on alli diet pills. And it seems to be the most prominent one that will work. I may go purchase a bottle to see how it works. If I don’t take this step then I foresee something bad happening to me. And I don’t want that. I have a 11 year old Boy who needs me.

As for right now, I am stressing big time over something. I should of rec’d my money today and it wasn’t there causing my account to be overdrawn. Darn them. So now here goes my plans for new shoes tomorrow. It never ever fails. I make plans to buy something for myself and its ruined. For how badly I need shoes, its not even funny.

I am trying so hard to break my extremely bad habit of staying up late. Usually around 11pm, I am a wired for sound person who cannot sleep. I am about to turn everything off and go to bed. I will say, I have been sick for the past week. I am tired, worn out and just plain depressed. But I am trying my hardest to keep my head up for my Son. I don’t want him to worry about me.

I am getting excited. I am buying myself a new pair of shoes this Friday. My shoes are holey right now and they would not last me the winter. I soooo can’t wait.

Tonight we had opportunity to go to the local Boy Scout Camp and have the boys in the troop build a Ballista. Having daylight now go much earlier..totally bites. We didn’t have much time. BUT being a Boy Scout they do things no matter what…light/dark/wet/dry…catch my drift? In a couple of weeks there is a camping thing going on for the Scouts. Its an all weekend thing. I really would like to go myself and camp. I know sounds silly but I do. I would have my own tent of course. Cause that is how it works. I want my Son to enjoy camping with the scouts. I will be there but in the background. I need to talk to my Son’s Father to let him know if he wants to go or if I can.

Not so happy right now. It means. Cold, Wet, Slippery, Nasty weather is coming. And I don’t want it this year. And Christmas is right around the corner. Where does the time go? I mean seriously, WHERE? I just may buy gift baskets for my family this year. I can’t afford a whole lot so maybe something that’s pretty equal and even for everyone would work. I do know that I am not doing what I did last year with the kids. My Son is getting to the age of NOT wanting little kid toys. He is a bit more difficult than the other kids. He is also maturing faster too. For Christmas this year, I am getting him a DS I think. And maybe some Wii games. I wish I had a whole lot of money for Christmas. I am saving all my online working money to have a Christmas. Our tree every year looks so empty and I would love to be able to buy everyone at least ONE gift.