U Gotta Be Kiddin Me

Over four years ago, I was touched and knew of someone who decided to take their own life.   When I rec'd the call that the person I knew, had hung himself it stopped me in my tracks.  I did not know his reason nor will I ever know.  Because this person had such a outlook on life, very active in sports, and took excellent care of his body and health.  It was my Sister that called me that fateful while shopping at a dept. store.  I lost my breath and started crying.  I immediately wanted to know why?  I had so many questions but no one to ask them too.  Because HE was the only person I knew.  I never made it to him visitation.   I did however drive by.  I stopped.  But I had to keep going.  I knew if I looked back I would have several questions.    Now, today.  I had to attend a visitation.  It was a friend of a friend.  I do not know the reason or the whys but he also chose to end his short life.   He had a wonderful wife and a Son.  Whom adored his Father.  I simply do not understand why he would chose to leave what loved him the most.  Why he would leave his family to fend for themselves in this evil world.  Why have the ones hurt so bad for the loss?  When we walked in, it was a surreal scene.  I only knew of a few people.  I found the Wife, and waited til' she came out of the restroom as I knew, just knew why she went in there.  When she emerged, I went up to her and gave her a hug.  I didn't say anything.  I couldn't.  There isn't anything I can say to make her feel any better as I do not know the whole reason why this happened to her.   So just being there for her and giving her a hug, was all that I could do for her.  I feel so sad for her.  I feel the pain for her.  And tonight when my Boyfriend left, I told him that I am the luckiest person right now.  And I need to cherish this time because you just never know what tomorrow may bring.

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