U Gotta Be Kiddin Me

In order to get my bills straightened out, I need to get things in order and find some help. I do not manage my money very well. I get a monthly report on my credit report, its slowly getting better. My Credit Score has raised but not very much. I have bad credit, I will admit it. Earlier I took one of those Bills IQ test. And yes, it wasn’t very good. But at least I was honest with myself about some of the questions. It really made me think about my future and the future for my Son. I don’t have any a Will or anything like that. If I die, I have no gravesite no nothing. I simply cannot leave that up to my Son to have to pay to bury me.

So I need to sit down, write down all my bills. Set up some goals. Get them all paid. Starting saving money for a rainy day fund. Just in case something happens to my van or something. If anything were to happen, I would totally would be up a creek without a paddle.

And with the way the economy is going right now, people are struggling to pay their bills. And people I know are losing their homes, their vehicles and other important things. I think we need for our gas prices to be lower. But who knows if that will ever happen again.

He is going with his Dad for a week. I don’t know what I am going to do without him. Seriously. I am going to miss him. But he needs this time with his Dad as well, and I shouldn’t be so selfish. I sure hope he’s good for him all week. I know he will be, but I still worry you know.

Whoa…I am craving brownies right now. And I don’t have any to make. Man!!!!

With having my blog and deciding if I want to keep it or not. I know I need to keep it but who knows. I am stressing but alot of stress was relieved yesterday after visiting the unemployment office. With my other job, I was able to collect benefits all winter long and I exhausted all my benefits and was done. Well I got a job during the last week I rec’d benefits so that helped.

With me almost being done with my newest job, I rec’d a letter stating I qualify again. Like how exciting is that? Perfect timing in all aspects. I’ve been worrying about my bills, trying to get them all caught up. I get another paycheck, so that helps. My Birthday is also coming up. It falls on a Sunday so I am excited this year. Not that I am going to get anything for my birthday, actually I would hate for a repeat from last year. I would have to say…I was pretty upset. Well not upset but heartbroken.

Anyway, I don’t want to think about it right now. I would like to have a good birthday and a positive one. You know I get so depressed over other people who have good birthdays. A friend of mine, her parents take her kids out and buy something for her. And usually have a little party for her as well. Granted we all grow up and stuff, sometimes its a nice surprise to have a little party once in a great while. Maybe we don’t want to let go of our childhood….ya know?