Here’s a explanation….which I should NOT have to do.
I have PCOS, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I have suffered with this now for over a year. I have Very irregular periods. Excuse me if this is too graphic but I feel NO ONE LISTENS to me. My last couple of months have been very light. So I didn’t think anything of it yesterday when I noticed I was about to start. So this morning, started out very strange. I felt a strange sensation. I got up ran to the bathroom. It was not a nice site. I started cramping. I started feeling lightheaded. I didn’t feel right. I felt very tired. I then get the urge to go to the bathroom again. And it looked like something was murdered in the toilet bowl. I honestly didn’t know what to do. I had to change clothes. Here I am thinking about the truck we were to get in at work today and how the hell am I supposed to do that. I couldn’t get dressed let alone go to work today.
So my boyfriend tells me, that I was in no shape to work this morning. He must of seen something in my eyes. I called into work, crying my eyes out. I managed to run to the store, buy some Midol and some chocolate…comfort food and come back home and laid down. I set my alarm to be able to pick my Son up from school. But then again…why set it when everyone and their Mother call me.
I understand that we all have bad days and all. Trust me I do. I frankly remember a time, not too long ago when I needed someone and NO ONE was there for me. But will I bring that up…NOOOOO. So, I just wanted to make myself clear and that nobody is perfect. I have been putting up with way too much crap lately and maybe people will start wondering why I won’t answer phone calls anymore. I am in too bitchy of a mood to frankly put up with anybody….and when I say anybody…I mean anybody. I simply cannot handle my emotions, my body or what havoc it puts me thru. I wish people would seriously stop trying to make me feel bad for something that is not in our control. I am done. I am done. I am an adult. I want to live and love my life to the fullest. And there is only ONE of me.
If anyone is going to be mad at me….think twice. I am a tad bit moody right now. And I am ready to argue.