U Gotta Be Kiddin Me

Truly, seriously...this time of the month isn't exactly the best times. I get really emotional. I start to think about things and I really dislike the things I think about. Watching the news, a local gentleman is fighting stomach cancer and he has decided to leave a legacy for his future grandkids and his daughters. I sat there and just started crying. For the life of me...why? I thought about, What If? What If my Grandpa had left a living legacy, something to remember him by. What if he left us a part of him to see how Great he was, instead of just hearing it. What if he could of left us Grandkids a message, just to see and hear his voice. Life isn't fair, life gives us these tests in life to see how strong we really are. Losing my Grandpa at such a young age, left me with alot of questions. Why was it fair to lose him? Why did God have to take him away from us? Is there really a God? Are we being punished? Did I do something wrong to deserve this? These are questions I dealt with after he passed. And watching the news tonight, really brought back the tears. Gosh, I hate being so flippin' emotional....

I knew today would be extremely busy at work as we are to get a huge truckload tomorrow. It seems over the weekend we got bought out. Our greenhouse is empty AGAIN. It seems for some reason...that on the Sunny Nice Days. People come out in droves and buy all our stuff up. I am not used to this at all. But I will take it. It keeps me busy. At my other job, it seemed there were days when it was so slow and boring. The ladies at the new place are absolutely wonderful. I am going to do something nice for them as they are so willing to help out when I need the help. I sure hope that I am able to keep the job for next year. But its not up to me, its up to my company. I am not exactly employee of the year, and I am not good at scheduling myself for work. So I made a up a schedule for the next couple of weeks for my company. I have to figure June out. Well, my tummy is hurting again. Going to lay down.