Mar 27 2008
Hmmm.
Lately my life has been very depressing. Let me share with you what has happened. First I find out I am not being called back to work. That was hard. Because I have to be able to provide for my Son. Just like ever other Single parent in this world. Well, then my boyfriend loses his job, this was about a week ago. Ok. it was a good thing because he worked over an hour away and it was straining the gas issue a bit. Well. He finds a job right away so that helped. But I am not making any money whatsoever which is why I am I am depressed. Two days ago my Landlord calls me to inform me that the water will be shut off on Friday because I didn't pay the bill. Well the issue with that is, I never rec'd a bill. Back when I moved in the landlord said he would call and have them send me a copy. HE NEVER did. So that right there put all the more stress into my life. I don't have the $124 for the bill. I used up all my unemployment so that is all gone. My Ex is finally back to work so who knows when child support will be in. I can't depend on it.
With me trying to find work online and work for companies that I blog for. I hope every single day that I get something. Anything helps and yesterday it frustrated me seeing other people get loads a work and I don't get anything. I know these other people need the money as bad as I do and I am grateful to see them get it as well. I am just being a whiney butt because my internet will probably be shut off on Monday because I am short in paying the bill. I just got the DSL and having to pay for the modem made the bill higher. So basically I need to get that balance paid and I will be good. But...that isn't gonna happen. The money I am getting this week from one company is going to pay partial on that bill. Its so hard to work for something and never see it. Makes me sad.....I hate to share my problems with people...I really do. But I want people to know....I am no better than anyone else and life really sucks right now.
Now get this...I had a dream two nights ago.
It started out with me and my Son. We had to cross a bridge. With no railings and the water was up to the edge of the "brick" sidewalk. I kept telling my Son don't get too close to the edge otherwise we will drown. Then the dream jumped to being in the back seat of my Mom and Dad's blazer. But the blazer had no top...convertible. And we were by the river and my Dad has always been a go getter, adventurous type. We drive down into the mud, we all get dirty but we are bouncing all over the place. And yet I have this anger against my Dad for putting us at risk. And this is also by the same river as above. But see this place had ice chunks and he drives over them too.
Is my dream telling me that I am afraid of drowning, like being worried about my bills? I think that is what my dream was trying to tell me.
**WARNING** I've been on the warpath with bad eBay sellers. I've had not one but two in a row., I have a dispute in with one because they done pissed me off. You don't send someone the wrong part and expect them to pay for the return shipping. Then after numerous emails of them asking for pictures....and I send them numerous times. Then try to make it sound like I am an idiot. THEN I call the guy sounds like he's doing drugs or something. Has no clue what is going on. Never asks for my name, auction number....NO you don't do that. I just want my money back. I mailed the wrong part back....I don't have a use for a Panasonic part for my Sony. Duh!!! The other seller was great and refunded me back the difference in shipping. The auction said priority and they sent it first class. Its over a $2 difference. Don't mess with me and money.
I guess I am just sick and tired of businesses taking advantage of people.
