I missed Extreme Makeover Home Edition because of the stupid snow storm. But now that we are able to watch them online I just got done watching it. And it tore at my heart strings big time. Little Jenessa “Boey” Byers was stricken with cancer, beat it then it struck again. But it wasn’t the cancer that took her away it was a staph infection and pnuemonia that took her away on 12/28/2007. When I started watching the show I knew I had to look up her site. It took me a lil’ bit but I found it. And when it said she is now with her King, my heart stopped. As I was watching the show knowing she is no longer with us it tore me up. At one point in time when she was in her closet looking at her new stuff. She told her Mom, she didn’t want to leave. I don’t think any of us want to leave but this little girl got me. When they first told the bus driver to move that bus, her reaction and cries were real…they were sincere. I’ve seen shows where the people seemed fake and it irritated me. But this one. I can’t help but wonder why she was taken so soon. She had so much to give. She loved life. Its not fair.
Can ya tell I am a bit upset…just all teary eyed right now…can’t see the screen. Keep messing up the keystrokes. Still not used to the laptop thing. All out of kleenex and the closest thing to me are my dirty socks….I don’t think so. LOL.
Last night was the worst night I have ever experienced. If anyone knows me, and my ex-Husband. Would know exactly how mean and cruel my Ex really is. We have this understanding that I would either pick up or drop him off. You know a 50/50 thing. Well I told my Ex I had a commitment on Sunday that I could pick up our Son before hand or wait til’ after. he told me to pick him up afterwards. Well during the time I was at rehearsal with my Niece, I never noticed the snow due to a wall. My Sister calls me and tells me she is picking up my Niece because the roads are getting bad. I told her to Shut Up. I got up, and bout hit the floor. I could not see across the street. I totally freaked out. That meant I had to drive in this wonderful snow storm that dropped over 5 inches on us. The Highway was completely snow covered. So I called my Ex to see if he could meet me somewhere in town, even though I drove more than half way there I still made it down there.
He threw the biggest fit in the world about missing the stupid Super Bowl. OMG. The Super Bowl is the last thing in the world on my mind at the particular moment. I was dealing with cars in the ditch people driving like stupid people, fishing tailing all over the road, with cars coming on my side of the road from the wrong direction. Basically white out conditions. And the snowdrifts hid the road.
I cried a little over half way there, asking why me? Why am I being punished right now? Why is it that my ExHusband is the biggest asshole around? Why is it that I have to be the strong parent? I simply do not want to speak to my Ex right now. I am afraid of what I may say. I want nothing to do with him at this moment.
When he was here at my house on Friday he threw a fit about me buying a laptop…WTF? Its not his money. He does this all the time, he still judges who I am dating. I often wonder if he still hasn’t let me go. That he thinks he can control me still. Well,
